A Heavy Confession

Yesterday I was gung-ho about this blog but today I've had a creeping thought that makes me feel less enthusiastic: do I really want to create and design a great blog that I don't even own? As in all that I create here ultimately belongs to blogger. I have been wrestling with that question for a few hours and though there is the con of lack of ownership, there is an attractive pro in saving $3.99 a month for hosting. Still as I wrestle with the future, there is content galore I could be sharing. Such as this podcast link to Michael Cabbibo's message from Sunday that I created earlier today: The Coat, the Shoes and the Ring.

Or the link to the podcast of Denise Spinos' testimony and songs that I also created today: Denise Spinos’ Testimony and Songs.

Then there is the half hour conversation I had with two people from American Power and Gas trying to convince us to switch our gas and electric supply from PSE&G to them. Nothing would have made me happier if they could consistently save us money, but after reviewing seven negative customer reviews (with no positive reviews to offer) on Better Business Bureau, they did not sound very attractive after all.

However, what sealed the deal in not following up with them to switch was we have used Ambit as our supplier in the past and they have eight positive reviews and only two negative on Better Business Bureau and we even chose to cut them loose due to price concerns.

Then on a more serious note completely I could mention the shooting down in South Carolina where some demon possessed young man shot and killed nine people in a church. Now it's a race war and Obama used it to say how guns should be limited in America (though the Second Amendment guarantees our right to bear arms). It's crazy I thought because my first reaction was the exact opposite when I was telling someone this morning that if they were all armed in the church this would not have happened. Sure, church should be the last place a gun belongs, but in this messed up world where Satan goes about seeking whom he may devour, it only seems intelligent we do all we can to defend ourselves. Then I'm annoyed because I'm on twitter after work just relaxing and reading how some African American Christians are upset because they think the church in general is ignoring the "black lives matter" crusade. I was reading the twitter feed of one young lady in particular and was surprised to learn that Fox News said, "if the church members were armed then this wouldn't have happened." There was of course a picture mocking the quote, but I thought it was interesting because it was almost word for word what I said this morning.

Then on facebook I run across this video about "what the media is not saying about the shooting." And I ask myself how possibly could this story be spinned? I decided to watch the video anyway out of curiosity and saw it was an Info Wars video of the Alex Jones genre. I was not real disappointed because lately it seems what Alex says makes more and more sense in what I am viewing as a more and more twisted world. In any case here is the video:



After I realized the speaker in this video has strong ties to Info Wars I decided to look up Alex Jones directly on twitter and see what he had to say and ran across this video:



This whole thing about "if you're a white conservative then you must be racist" is just getting on my nerves. I am completely against racism but that doesn't mean I'm gonna support same-sex marriage or gun control to make it look like I'm not racist. That's just non-sense. And on that note, I'll end with a comforting picture I took earlier today of a cross I found in an unexpected place: